From the Star Trek DS9 episode Honor Among Thieves:
“What choice do I have?
How did I let this happen?
I should have known.
You were too good to be true.
I wanted so much to believe that my luck had changed, I didn’t see it.
I didn’t see it.
I never meant for this to happen.”
Oof. The episode centers around Miles O’Brien, a member of Starfleet, going undercover among The Orion Syndicate, a futuristic Mafia. He befriends one of the thieves named Bilby and then breaks his cover to warn Bilby that he’s going to be killed in an ambush. The quote from above is from Bilby; it was heartbreaking.
Now that I’m not crying anymore, I realized it hit on my deep-seated fear that I’m tricking myself into thinking that my luck has changed: that life is really good and that I’m not recognizing what’s an illusion.